Every morning is a mystery. I never know what the scene will
be outside my kitchen window. I love the ocean. I find it calming. Peaceful.
Alive. After retiring from the transient life of the Air Force, I wanted a home
with a water view. But alas, beachside is not our lot in life. However, marshside
is!
So every morning I wander down to my kitchen to grab my cup
a’ joe. I look out the window over my kitchen sink and wonder, “Will there be ocean or
mud?” The water in the marsh rises and falls with the tide. This morning was
the most beautiful, chilly fall morning. When I glanced out the window, my
heart filled with joy. No literally. Seeing God’s amazing creation brings a
smile to my face and I’m filled with gratitude.
Attempt #1 The white in the distance are the diamonds! But I guess you just have to trust me. |
Just beyond my fence, the tide was so high that the water almost
touched the tip of our kayak on the bank. The sun, which has been hiding for a
few days, was reflecting off the water, looking like a million diamonds dancing
over the surface. Something about that view filled my heart with hope. Today
was going to be a good day. I grabbed my camera to try to capture the view. But
honestly, I failed. The picture doesn’t convey what I saw.
I sat down on my deck to soak it in. And as God often does,
I felt Him teaching me something in this moment. I was so taken with this view
because it doesn’t happen every morning. I’m not sure that I would ever take it
for granted. I’d like to think I wouldn’t. But I may never know. Because that’s
not my life. On the mornings the tide is low, I wake up to mud.
This morning I thought, “The sparkling water is so much more beautiful
because I know what the marsh looks like without it.”
And such is life.
I’ve mentioned before how much I dislike discomfort. If I
could have it my way, every day would be easy. No pain. No discomfort. Never
too cold. Never too hot. Constant perfection. But here’s the reality. If life
really was like that, we wouldn’t appreciate the good in our lives. Without
something to compare it to, life would be bland. Boring.
Challenge and change are the spice of life.
When my husband used to have to go on extended TDYs or
deployments, I dreaded the pain of that separation. It was hard. I’m glad those
days are over. (Not to confuse you, we just traded those struggles for new ones.) But in the struggle, I grew. I learned I could do more than I
thought. I didn’t enjoy it, but I survived. And on the best days, I thrived.
God was faithful. We got through it. And when we were reunited, the joy of
having my husband home was heightened because I knew what it was to be without
him. The contrast made me appreciate his presence so much more.
Have you ever been so hungry that whatever you eat tastes better than you ever remember it tasting before? "One who is full loathes honey from the comb, but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet." Proverb 27:7.
Or when you've been sick. That first morning you wake up feeling normal again. You never realized how great normal felt until you were running a 101 fever and couldn't keep anything down. Suddenly "normal" is amazing!
Like the ebb and flow of the tides, our lives are filled
with good and bad. I look out at the mud when the tide is low and think of how
muddy and messy life is sometimes. Some days I’m tempted to wallow in that mud.
To even start believing that the mud is all there is. Until the tide comes back
in.
Even though I don’t understand them, the tides have a God-given schedule.
They happen twice a day. But to me they seem random. I don't understand them. They aren't on a 12 hr schedule. And so it is with my life. I don’t understand His
timing, but I trust that He does. Believing Him to be all-powerful, I know that
all He has to do is say the word and my circumstances would change. But His
ways are higher than mine.
"For My
thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord."For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts."
Nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord."For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:8-9
Dear friend, no matter what you’re going through right now, this too
shall pass. There are better days ahead. The tide will come in. The water will
sparkle again. And when it does, what joy will fill your heart!
Terri, I love how you captured those quiet moments that God uses for speaking so gently and intimately. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jennifer! I love that you read this! You never know who is going to see your posts. There's something so gratifying in knowing someone reads the words you put out there. Maybe it shouldn't matter, but I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate it! Miss you,
ReplyDeleteYou create lovely pictures with your words (even when cameras fail). Yes, I've experienced the same. The challenges DO make life that much sweeter as we choose joy in the growth.
ReplyDeleteThank you DeEtta! You know all about choosing joy! Miss you lady!
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